Damn I've Been Gone For A While.

Ok. Here I go again. Another Jess Revival. Only hopes is that I check-in with blog more often from now on. Reason for lack of "bloggin'" in recent months is because nothing really BIG has actually happened. It's been rather hum-drum, uneventful, a life needing a jolt of sumpin' sumpin'. What that could be... I dunno. Just a good sign needs to be sent to me for me to feel like everything I'm doin' is going fruitfully according to some higher plan/agenda/work-in-progress, called, Jess' Glorious Life.

So, in a nutshell, I'll just B-line through some cool stuff of the past summer.

ABC PRIMETIME WEEKEND @ California Adventure
Who: Tin and I, and a buncha ALIAS FREAKS we don't know.
When: Beginning of Aug.
Where: Calif. Adventure
Why: To See the Stars of our favorite TV show, ALIAS. If you haven't been watching, there's no time like NOW. Season premiere, Sun. 9 pm. ABC. Stars i.e. Jennifer Garner, Michael Vartan. HOT HOT HOT.
What Happened: Cast did a Q&A with Fans, it was fantastic, then there was a parade.
Highlights: HIGHS: Seeing Garner and Vartan.. in PERSON.
LOWS: Riding California Screamin' --the only upsidedown ride, that was considerably weak, and becoming NAUSEOUS afterwards. Tin had to go to the First Aid Hut and get my Ibruprofen and water, and I was NOSH for 2 hours, I threw up, it was horrrrible. But I was all better by Q&A time. NOTE TO SELF and OTHERS: NO MORE ROLLER COASTER RIDES for JESS, NEVER INVITE ME TO GO, I WILL BE POOR COMPANY, I WILL MAKE YOUR DAY SHITTY. Thanks, Tin, for taking care of me. =) heheh.
PARTING NOTE: Garner is soo cute and great, VARTAN is SOOO HOT and awesome, ALIAS is the one show you aren't watching, but need to start. Season 1 is out on DVD, go get it, rent it, watch it. I've already converted my two sisters into BIG BIG Alias FANS!

ALIAS SEASON 1 DVD: It's great. Best commentary, great bonus features. And I ask again, WHY AREN'T You WATCHING?


COOKING: I LOVE TO COOK. I LOVE to COOK. I WANT COOKING APPLIANCES. If you ever want to get me a gift I will like, THINK KITCHEN, or think MOVIES, or think ALIAS.

JOB HUNT: STILL GOING. STILL GOING. Sending those resumes. Goin' to interviews. Waiting for callbacks. I can't stand places that don't call you back even if you don't get the job. I don't care if I didn't get the job, at least call and tell me, and lemme know what I can do to make myself a better sell. The right job will come around, so, DOOODE, just lemme know why I didn't get the job. No hard feelings, buddy.

NEW APT: It's great. So everyone come visit.

J.CREW: I'm a Client Specialist now, so if you'd like to be added to my Client Book, lemme know. =) Come to J.CREW @ the grove for SUPER CUSTOMER SERVICe. Clothes with a SMILE. Visit http://www.jcrew.com and see the newest stuff from our Fall collection.

I can't think of anything more at the moment. Get back to you later. Adios!

OK. WELCOME BACK, ME, AGAIN. PART DEUX.

Ok. I can't even remember if a lot of things have been happening recently. The most important issue I have been concerned about has been finding a job/career. Currently, I'm still a lovely J.CREW Associate which has been great cuz I love the people I work with and love customer service, and I think I might even have a knack @ retail somewhere down the line. Yes, you heard it here first. But I just got a call from 20th Century Fox Tv Publicity and I have an interview MOnday. Fingers crossed. I guess this entry will be made up of random thoughts and recounting memories of the past couple of weeks.

MELL's GOING AWAY *BOW CHICKA-BOW-WOW* POW WOW: consisting of LOTSA friends, deltas, boys, and alcohol. Dinner was @ Miyagi's and it was great seeing and yappin with everyone that came. Drinks flowed right from the get-go with Mell tippin back a nice, refreshing LONG ISLAND!! Those in attendence, Mell, Mao, Jen Ito, Vanessa, Annette. Jessica, Caroline, Everly, Angie, Angie's Bf Ryan without the B, Cindy and Cin's Bf Jamie, Master P "Matt", Merlo, Eric, Joe, Seung, and Jin, Lance and Frances, and I forgetting anyone?! Anyways, drinks flowed thanks to the generous boys who kindly offered us beverages, Caroline even hit on the Frenchie bartender in which she swapped her number for free drinks. Caroline, caroline, always knows how to take one for the team. FYI: Frenchie called her up a couple days later for a date. hahah. Miyagi's, surprisingly, plays great music videos. Alotta alternative rock, such as COldplay, Chevelle, Bush, NO Doubt, in which we decided to sing half the songs, and do cool 80's dance moves. Well me and Matt decided to Robot and Worm around in a pair, it was awesome. I'm VERY impressed that Matt, of all nerds and dorks, can DANCE!! He can actually punk-move. Talk about never judgin a book by its cover! (No offense Matt, love you, you know that!)

Anyways, we were there for a while, drinkin' sake bombs, tequila puffs, *unmentionable* named drinks, yeah. Nuff bout liquids. Next off it was DUBLINS, but DUBLINS does not have a dance floor anymore to our surprised so we left ASAP, but not before Caroline decided to get into a lil argument with one of the Dublin guys. ANyways, Matt decided to piss off the bouncers by wearing his "DORK" cap to the side and tellin the bouncers that the place sucked ass, so bouncers were like, "if he tries to come back in, don't let him."

After DUB's, it was off to SADDLEBAGS, i mean, SADDLE RANCH, aka SAUNA. TOo many people. Too little rooom. Crowd was crappy. And yeah, Too many people giving off too much sweat and heat, so needless to say, our entourage BOUNCED. NEXT STOP: The Standard on Sunset.

The Standard: was great, strongggg drinks, good lookin crowd, great ambiance. Yeah. Till Caroline decided to walk into the kitchen with a drink and chuck the glass on a table full of glasses and piss off the kitchen staff. But this is after she pee's on these steps cuz the line was too line for the b-room. Annette, thanks for watching out for her. Caroline seriously makes any outting, a MEMORABLE one. Time to roll out, as we head to... NAKWON in K-TOWN.

Drinking + Late Nite = Trip to K-town for Kalbi Tang. Short Rib Soup, for you white folk. SO we go, and drink our hangover healer. And the nite concludes. THanks for the memories. It was fun. Thanks to Matt for generously driving my car so we couldn't be sober.

SUNDAY: BRUNCH with THE GURLS @ PEDALS CAFE @ SHUTTERS @ THE BEACH HOTEL, Santa monica.
BEAUTIFUL PLACE, DAY, COMPANY, EVERYTHING! We sat on the patio, as this was an early Birfday Brunch for dear CINDY's 22nd BDAY. Which is today! SO everyone say HAPPY BDAY to cin! 7/10! This place is so pretty, and I'd recommend anyone to go have brunch here. We all tried something different almost, Lemon Ricotta Pancakes, Raisin Brioche French Toast, Roasted Salmon with Garlicky Potatoes and Buttered Green Beans, Eggs Benedict, and Chicken CLub Sandwich. ALL were magnificent!! I was drooling at all the food, as Mell pointed out, I especially went into fulll DROOL mode when I saw and tasted The Chicken CLUB. SOOOOOOOO YUM. Anyways, Cin got some of her bday gifts, including the KETTLE she's been dying to get. It was great. Just Fabulous. Mell and Annette are moving upnorth this week, and it's damn sad I tell yall. The gurls are finally seperating and Jess is getting weepy. WAHHHH!!!!

As for other highlights of the week, COOKING has been a big deal.
Monday Lunch: Turkey Sandwiches on rustic french bread: ---> Sliced fresh French Bread from La Brea Bakery toasted in the oven, with a bit of dijon spread, warm deli-thin turkey and ham with a sprinkle of melted cheddar, sliced avocado, arugala and tomato.
Night: Seared Lime-Cilantro Steak on a bed of Lime-Drenched Spinach and Arugala with sweet corn , cherry tomatoes and avocado, drizzled with a Honey Peppercorn Dijon dressing. In addition, a lovely Pan-roasted Red Trout in a tomato and spinach reduction. "Dinner was amazing!" -- Nick Yay! Alb made some delish pasta as well!

Wed Lunch: Seared Steak Sandwich with Fresh Guacamole Spread on French Toast Bread. It was good. I won't go into details and you aint gonna hear any complaints for my customers (aka, my sisters)
Wed Dinner: Red Pepper Ground Turkey Penne Pasta with fresh mushrooms and caramalized onions in a tomato garlic basil sauce. "Your pasta was soooooo good, Jess." --Guest

OK. Today is also Kat's bday. So everyone wish her a happy 23rd bday too!!! We're having dinner @ CYNTHIA's, this restaurant on 3rd st. Apparently she, the owner, aka Cynthia, is kinda mean sometimes to guests, but everyone loves the food so they don't give a crap!! Supposedly her COBBLER is to DIE FOR. SO it should be a wonderful evening!

As for this weekend, the Chen Gurls are cruisin up north to celebrate Kat's 23rd Norcal STyle. Dinner @ THE HOUSE, The dynasty clubbin the night away, Tea with the family on Saturday, and if Wei can find someone on ebay to sell her John Mayer tickets for Sunday, that'll be what's going down. IN the meantime, I hope I haven't bored my fellow blog readers to death. I hope this was worth a second of your time today. Yeah. Life outside of work, is a blast. Have a great day!!!! See you sooooon!!!

Mp3 Bumpin: Macy Gray - Speechless, off her new album 7/15/2003

Sure do like the way it's going down with you, we could be
Together for years, and I'm ready to make that move cross
That line, we could put some joy in each other's tears.
l.o.v.e. don't sum it up for me it's much m.o.r.e. than any
world could mean.

Baby aaaaah 'cause it's going down - make me sing lala when
You come around - make me say ooooh weee when u look at
Me - baby aaaaaah 'cause it's going down and I'm speechless.

Practicing all day what to say to you, but it never seems to
Come out right, just to know the feeling is so perfect for me and
You and I want to feel it for the rest of my life. l.o.v.e.
Don't sum it up for me it's much m.o.r.e. than any word
Could mean.

Baby aaaaah 'cause it's going down - make me sing lala when
You come around - make me say ooooh weee when u look at
Me - baby aaaaaah 'cause it's going down and I'm speechless.

O it's fur sure, there is love then there is something more.
I'm hoping the music can express what I feel when you caress -
Do you hear it when I scream your name when we're laying?

Sure do like the way it's going down with you we could be
Together for years

Go DL it. I love it. it's the jam. How'd I find it? ALIAS baby.

GOOD FOOD. GOOD FRIENDS. GOOD TIMES. LIFE IS GOOD.

Ok. So yesterday I threw a Sex And The City Premiere Launch Party Cocktail Dinner Party BASH! It was off the heeezee with plenty of good food, good friends, good times, good alcohol, and good everything. I spent all afternoon whippin' up Shrimp Avocado Seviche, which was the RAVE of the evening that got polished off before everyone arrived, Chicken, Potato, Butter Lettuce Salad with Honey Dijon Peppercorn Dressing, Miso-Glazed Salmon, FLatbread with Tomato Basil Hummus and the entourage brought Mango Salsa, Spring Rolls, Fresh Baked Cookies, breads, mango pudding, chocolate dipped strawberries, alkohol, dammn am I forgetting anything?!

Anyways, drinks flowed all evening with Lime MoJitos, Lychee Martinis, Wine, and coolers. Great conversation, mixing it up with mtg. new people, and yeah. It was great.

It's times like these that a big part of me lives for. I love to cook. Host lil shindigs. Seeing everyone getting along and catching up. I love my life.

It's Been A While

Ok. It's been a while and much has changed. For the better. I do believe so. I have finally moved in comfortably into my new home in West LA. The CON of all of this: the water heater sucks more ass than I don't even know what. It's lukewarm showers 24/7. Time to call the landlord and demand HOT WATER if we're payin this much rent. Ok. Moving on. =)

Last nite a lotta us went barhoppin in HERMOSA BEACH. If you've never been, u need to go. ASAP with a 9-1-1 quickness. Lemme tell ya, goin here is by far one of my favorite places to go. We always hit up Patty Malloys. Who's we for last nite? My sisters, mell, wendy, mei, mei's bf phong, lance (who left before we even got in.. PARTY FOUL), vanessa, adrienne, gertrude, gauvin, robb, daniel and more and more. We waited outside for seriously, over an hour, but finally got in and started partyin the nite away to *drumrolll* booty music as usual. I think our circle of girls mesmerized the white folk and the guys that tried to join the circle, did not succeed. Shot down left and right. Sorry guys! But anyways, we celebrated Mei's graduation, @ this time, she will have already received her diploma. Congrats, Mei! The music was ecclectic.. so ecclectic that we salsa'd, cha-cha-cha'd, and even country danced hahah. Highlights: imaginary lasso, imaginary fish hook, electric slide, imaginary wash the windows as we cha-cha-cha! And of course, West Side Story moves.... again. And Lance, if you're reading this, we did do a dance homage to you... we Karate-Chopped and Body-Rolled insync.. in honor of our fellow Team Madison teamster who had to leave early. You were missed dearly.

Anyways, Jess is on the job hunt, and it's goin pretty good. I'll keep the world posted with further developments.

Ok, I'm tired. Nap-a-roo time. Nite Nite.

taken away. things are fixed. a life is proceeding on. =)

Jess's Sportscenter



The Tuesday Nite Watering Hole: Pint Nite @ Madison's Westwood
[visit: http://www-scf.usc.edu/~chenj/mylife.html for the play-by-play visual captures]

Mission: Team Madison ---3 Chen Gurls, Wei's super sidekick Mei, and OST's finest Havocs Albert aka Albie, Lance aka Karate Chop, and Winger aka Sasquatch, aim to drain the kegs and taps of Madison's. With glasses of Sam, Miller Lite, and Pear Cider being downed, fun was definitely on the menu. Karate Chops. Shaved eyebrows. Bodyroll s*ittalkin. Alkie spillage. And, of course a special appearance of, 3 COOL.

The Highlight Reel:
-Albert outside of the bar cramming "Jonathan Wong's" California Driver's License i.e. vital statistics, and horoscope sign.
-Westside Story Body Roll Duet Rendition courtesy of the gurls inspired by the real-life events of the Justin and Britney Westside Story Shakedown Showdown.
-Lance's signature dance move, The Kar-ra-tay Chop, in real time and DOUBLE TIME a la Billy Blanks and Tae-Bo. Can you handle this **chop chop chop**???
-The enlightening public roundtable bar discussion of Winger's Eyebrows. Too much? Too little? Too hot? Too hot? Or just right?
-Alb and Jess' run for the Bathroom @ Chevron on Gayley with Bladders Threatening to Burst @ the Seams.
- Chen Gurls giving the world premiere of 3 COOL. Thank you, grams, for the wonderful bountiful adipose tissue we have been so blessed to have. Fat is great. Kidding.

There were more happenings, but I'm afraid they are unmentionable at this time.

Hope you enjoyed Jess's Sportscenter. Please come back for more or leave comments. The people of Team Madison appreciate it.

HIT & MISS: What Rocked, What Sucked @$$---> Graduation and Retreat

HIT: After 4 years, I'm leaving USC with a degree, and great memories and friends.
MISS: it took the work of accumulating a $120,000 education compiled from FREE money, daddy's hard-earned moohla, lovely loans, and work study.

HIT: the greek tapas reception
MISS: the chicken kabobs were drier than a drought

HIT: Grad Lunch @ Taiko
MISS: mommy chen distributing an entire round of Vitamin B and E vitamins to the entire Chen Clan after our meal. *sigh* mother's will be mothers.

HIT: prancing around with Libbi being "wispy and romantic" bridesmaids in J.CREW summer dresses
MISS: mom giving us a fashion show of what she was plannin on wearin to a wedding this weeekend. Ok. It wasn't that bad, since she ended up giving me a gold necklace. Cha-Ching!

HIT: The Chen Gurls goin Mystere "Unmentionables" Shopping @ Nordstroms @ The Grove, with daddy strolling by and buying all of these Unmentionables for 3 of us Chen's. Thanks daddy!!! These Unmentionables minimize the ladies nicely while offering fabulous shape.
MISS: These unmentionables cost an arm and a leg.....EACH. Thanks daddy!!!

HIT: Partyin it up @ the Lounge with the Chen/Huang Girls, friends........with Mell and I finding 2 cute bOyS!
MISS: numbers were not exchanged. But this hawaiian hapa boy was very very very cute and sweet.

HIT: Palm Springs retreat... tanning, swimming, grilling, with deltas.
MISS: I drove there and back in the same day. Totaling 230 miles.

Lessons for you to take away from this entry: You could buy yourself 2 RangeRovers for the price of an SC education, only come if you're gettin a grip of financial aid..heheh... my family is very cool beyond the usually typical family insanity factor, hawaiian boys are great, don't drive to and back from Palm Springs in one day. Lastly, go out and get yourself a Mystere bra, you won't be dissapointed. Oh, and eat your vitamins.

GRADUATION: THE END OF AN ERA


The CHEN FAMILY


The cousins

4 wonderful years concluded yesterday. Officially, officially, @ the end of June when I finish one more summer school class. Yesterday was a big big day not only because it was my graduation, but it marked the first time the Chen Family was physically together in over 20 months. 20 months! Almost 2 years! I hadn't seen my mom in 19 months! My cousins Albert and Liberty also came to the festivities and I was very happy we were all together to celebrate this event. Lining up before the main ceremony @ 8 am was nostalgic. I lined up with Mell, Grace,Cin, Annette, Amy, Annie, and the guys, in the BIOLOGY line, all so we could sit together....near the front. We took a gazillion pictures in line and all these memories came flying back in my head:I had met these particular friends the 1st week of school 4 years ago.... most of them at rush or in my dorm room. The different ways we all met, how we met, where we met, why we met come together to form a fascinating story and saga for our lives.

Mell: I met in line during APASS Orientation, and she was also in my Group, and it was then that she decided she wasn't gonna like me cuz I said I came to SC cuz I didn't get into UCLA.
Grace: she lived 3 doors down from me in the North Residential Dorms.
Cin: while gathering outside of EVK before a Rush event, I found out she was from Metairre, Louisiana and that she was friends with our mutual friend, Yvonne.
Annette, Annie, Amy: Either @ APASS Orientation or @ our 1st Pledge Meeting to elect our cabinet. Annette and her broken sandal from Macys. She was so pissed about it.

From those lil moments, incredible friendships have been built over the course of 4 years with many memories to come. Ahh, I thank these wonderful people for letting me be part of their lives, and them being a part of mine. The times for Tea, Dinner, Shopping, Brunch, prepping for Xmas Dinner, 7-hour Jell-o, Seung's Tan 4-Runner that we managed to pawn from him to let us use, pledging, dp-ing, X-mas Dinner I have to mention again, Cin's mad case of stubborness, Drunken Dialing, past/present bf's, UV, Elegance, the list continues forever. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. xoxo.

The ceremonies themselves were wonderful as the tuition money we've paid has paid off into a wonderful greek food reception, a big white nice tent to have our ceremony under, newly planted flower beds all over campus, and just a beautiful campus in general. The speeches, the presidential address, everything. Thanks mom and dad for paying my valued tuition of $120,000 (thank god for financial aid), thank you to my siblings for taking this journey with me, the friends who have made the past 4 years the best 4 years of my life, and I thank myself, for choosing to come to SC, and for letting the past 4 years unfold in the most amazing way. I am truly truly truly blessed. Full steam ahead into the next chapter of the wonderful life of Jess. You with me?

Personal Mantra: "Anything less, wouldn't be Jess." [thanks Cin, for helping me come up with this! You are truly amazing, just like I told you today.]

definition: I really do strive to be good, to be great, to give everyone the best of me. So never ever doubt that. Not that you ever shoulda. I dont' give anyone less than the best. Ya hear?

First off, I spent a wonderful day with Cin today. Selling back books. Paying off library fines. Buying Dayquil @ UV. Eating @ Panchos @ UV. And just talking. Seeing her sooOoooo in LuuuurrrrrVe with her bf Jamie, knowing how happy he makes her, and how happy she makes him, makes my day. There's not enough lovin' going on in the world, so I'm glad she's having a great big vat of it. I love seeing people so happy and knowing her, makes me believe that there really could me someone out there for muah. hahha. I'm so grateful to have a friend like Cin and I hope everyone has someone like her. Cin..thanks for listening to me about my life and everything that goes on with it today, I truly appreciate your company and your listening ear....even though I'm still goin hold youre "stubborness pledge year" over your heard....for foreverrrrrrrrrrr.

On that note, thank you to my big sister Kat aka "dajie, kath" for writing me a superb dedication to me today....sharing one of the rare "emotionally revealing touchy-feely" moments in the Chen family. And so it is my turn, for one of my ONE in a MILLION moments of sharing a piece of my heart.

Four blazin' years have gone by and you've been my soundingboard to whom I share and told some of the best moments of the past four years to. How wonderful deltas have been in my life, how i've gone on and on about how I love my friends at SC and SC, how I have loved my jobs and internships, how I've loved everything I've had the chance to get my paws on. I only hope that you have and will experience all of these wonderful feelings and people in your life. I'm happy to have been able to share some of the most important parts of my life in the past four years with you....i.e. mell, all the deltas, skess, tin, newline, j.crew, movies, my love for g.clooney and michael vartan, alias, gossip, cool industry perks, movie screenings, and whatever connections I have. Thank you for the Laker and Kings games, for letting me borrow your car pledge year cuz I know how hard it was for you to even think about lettin me borrow your car, and most of all, for being understanding about my commitment, dedication, loyalty to everything I am invovled with: deltas, work, and school, for those times I had to bail/couldn't play with you and wei and other important people in our lives. Though I have shared this much, there's still a ways to go, way more depth to achieve.

since we'll be living together soon, I'm sure that will bring our r-ship to another sisterly level, that I'm slightly dreading, because with sisters, no courtesy is reallly neccessary re: dirty dishes, and whatever else. I look forward to one bill for dad to pay for the apt, and to more laughs others will have of watching the Chen Gurls in-the-flesh...in person is what I mean. Interacting on a daily basis. And providing entertainment for all the world to see. Hi, wei! Had to get you in there somewhere. And i guess, with the Chen Gurls together, we can now go on the hunt, for 3 great {BLANK} Boys to go with the 3 Chen Girls.i.e. let's find 3 great bf's, for 3 great gurls. xoxo --- your sis, Chi

OUR ANTHEM..........
[For all the awesome sexy single gurls in the world to know...
and ...
For all the BONEHEAD guys out there who need to wake up, read that, and realize, go for the TOP. ASSHOLES.Oops, did that just slip out?]
---stolen from mell..from annette...from someone else.

Women are like apples on trees.
The best ones are at the top of the tree.
The men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten apples
from the ground that aren’t as good, but easy.
So, sometimes the apples at the top think something is wrong with them,
when in reality, THEY'RE amazing.
They just have to wait for the right man to come along,
the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the trees.

HALLELUJAH. WORD to the WISE. Hollaback.

Full Circle: A Decade Later...The EuroCrew is Still Chums



mission: Then Chen Gurls. The Cheng Duo. and Ben "Ming Ming" Foo. All of our
parents have been friends since forever. They all grew up together/and or worked or lived together before any of us were ever born. And their kids, aka "The Chen Gurls, Cheng Duo, and Ben", have all become friends thanks to one lovely EASTERN EUROPE motorcoach trip in the summer of 1993. A decade ago. European memories of a haunted hotel in Baden, a mission to find a SWIMMING POOL in each hotel we stayed at, throwing trash, popcorn, bottled water, and whatever food in the hotel room, out our hotel room window in VENICE cuz we thought it would be cool, eating too many potato balls, having a molester tour guide named steve, never sleeping, riping out the interior of this plane that ELVIS apparently flew on, many memories were made. It's been 8-10 years since we've all seen each other, and seeing each other again was super-swell and fabulous. The EuroCrew, forever in my heart. Chili's coasters from Seattle, baby!!!
Might be another 10 years before we are all together again, so we celebrated with japanese food, mojitos, coronas, and azian clubbing. Witness the reunion @ http://www-scf.usc.edu/~chenj/mylife.html

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CELEBRITY SIGHTING: OZZY OSBOURNE @ WOOD RANCH THE GROVE........ or so i thought!

Last night, my delta family had dinner @ Wood Ranch @ The Grove. Things to point out @ this time: WOOD RANCH is a BBQ haven. Chicken, Pork Ribs. Beef Ribs. Tri-Tip. Garlic Rolls. Artichoke Dip. It is the place to go in LA for some damn good finger-lickin-lick-lick-lick good grub!!!! If you haven't been, Go, Run, Now! Ahree thoroughly enjoyed dining on a pair of BBQ'd chicken boobs, boobs that would not shrink in size, according to her. She claimed to have taken at least 5 bites of the boobs, yet the chicken boobs did not appear to reduce in size in her eyes. Things to ponder: abnormal hormonal chicken? Or was Ahree seeing a mirage?

Mao had trouble cutting up her "half of a chicken carcass" dinner platter as she decided to "eat like a lady," *gasp!* by using her fork and knife. Apparently her parents think she usually noshes in a "wild" manner. Personally, I have never witnessed Mao consuming food in a savage or sadistic manner, so I guess I should keep my eyes peeled for flying bones and chicken flesh next time. Note to self: Bring umbrella and pancho to dinner next time to fend off any AIRBOURNE food pieces from Mao's plate.

Nothing exciting occured on Kristen's plate, but if I do recall, she did model a lovely new bracelet with some pretty ICE. At dinner, Jess(AO) did mention her enjoyable days @ work. She had her 60 day review and her boss has complained that she spends much too much time on ** gasp!** AIM... who woulda knew!?!?!? To improve her behavior, Jess has decided that she's gonna go COLD TURKEY: she uninstalled AIM on her computer and hell has frozen over. DevilishXangel will no longer be online from 9-6 daily now. R.I.P. DxA. You will be missed. hahahah.

And, of course, my big sis. Bon Bon Bon. Funny annecdote, she was wearing a jean jacket and dinner, and I'm busy eating my fabulous tri-tip with lotsa BBQ sauce when she decided to take her jean jacket off to reveal an assymetrical clubbing like top. Fabulous top showing plenty of skin, it was, so I HAD to tease her with food still in my mouth, "Sexy top big sis!!!" And then Jess(AO) decided to point out, "Uhhh Jess, realll nice, you've got bbq sauce all over your mouth." Yeah. Note to self: don't talk with my mouth full of globby bbq sauce. Sorry if I grossed yall out.

Ok. The ultimate highlight of dinner was seeing OZZZY OSBOURNE....then realizing, it wasn't OZZY, but it was a WOMAN who looked like OZZY!!! Check it out, we're all sittin in a booth eating dinner, and I peer over Ahree's head at the next banquette behind our booth, believing that I see OZZY OSBOURNE in the flesh. I'm about to shout out to my delta family, "Look over there, it's Ozzy Osbbb..." when I realize, it's a brown-haired WOMAN who looks like OZZY. Scary thought I know. So I bust up laughin so hard, like I haven't laughed in ages and tell everyone at the table bout how I mistakened a women for OZZY OSBOURNE. All of us look over and most of us start cackling. It was great. Our table couldn't stop laughin, and neither could I. Ok. Maybe you had to be there.

Ok.... on a more serious and hearfelt note, last nite's dinner was held as a farewell dinner for my grandlil sis/daughter AHREE. Ms. Ahree Song hailing from the great Midwest. Who is she? She's a mini Korean girl who enjoys hittin up her local WAL-MART back home, cuz, it's apparently the thing to do out there in the midwest. Sweet, sweet, thoughtful girl she is and I'm gonna miss her soooooo much. She's this lil ball of fire, with such determination, love, thoughtfulness, dedication, and devotion to her p-sisses. I wish nothing but good things for her as she goes back to Ohio to attend Cornell during the fall for Hotel Management. She was only out here for a year, but she has definitely left a huge impact on all of us here, for a lifetime. It's very sad to see her go, and I pray she flies back out to LA for crucial events and for fun soon. We'll miss you, Ree, and your flashing boobs. xoxo.

Like a JUNKIE needs HEROIN.
Like a BABY needs FORMULA.
Like a FAT KID craves CAKE.
Like JESS loves...(fill in the blank)

Today's theme: FOOD

***a quick rundown of what [food] makes a crappy day for Jess a good one.***
-Vanilla Bean Cheesecake from CF
-Church's Friiiied Cheeeeken
-California Chicken Cafe
- 2 words: WOOD RANCH.... love them bbq everything and the garlic rolls
-Toast with Butter and Honey
-Homemade Guacamole
-Strawberry Shortcake from Grand Lux Cafe
-Miso Salmon. Salmon in general. You can bring me a slab of raw salmon. Ahi Tuna too. YellowTail too. And I'll cook it. For you. And that'll make my day too.
-While we're on japanese food, SUSHI GEN's sashimi....right julia? Muahahha.
-Crazyfish sushi
-Martha's 22nd St. Grill, MINUS any MILKSHAKES whatsoever.....then lounging on Hermosa Beach afterwards.
-Chano's Mixed Up Burger with Eggg... ok, now I know what I'll miss as I move away from SC. CHANOS.
- Food: do you see the trend here? hahah.

AS I EXCUSE MYSELF FROM TYPING MY 12 page PAPER...

...I DL mp3s. And because I love music so much and love dl'ing illegally, I also love to share my musical finds. I live a vicarious life filled with very ECCLECTIC music. So share in the love. the glory. the pleasure of mp3s courtesy of my PlayList.

Music from:
The Real Cancun (this move is such awesome fun with such an awesome summer soundtrack. These tracks are beachy, driving, upbeat tracks, so take a crack @ it. Swing batter batter swing!)
Snoop Dogg - Beautiful
Bad Ronald - 1st Time (scandalous, but totally rockin)
OK Go - So Damn Hot
Simple Plan - Grow Up (punk fun)
Trick Daddy ft. Trina - Take It To Da House (ass shakin music)
Kottonmouth Kings - Positive Vibes
Hot Action Cop - Fever for the Flavor

Jack Johnson (new album released on Tuesday called ON AND ON....if you like Kick-Back Jams, he's your man. He's having a concert @ the HOLLYWOOD BOWL, Mon. Aug. 4th, ft. Ben Harper. Me and my gurls are gonna go. If interested, hit me up. If you've never been to a concert @ the Bowl, you need to go. Like ASAP. It's awesome and one of the best things I like about Los Angeles)
Wasting Time
Holes to Heaven
Times Like These
Cookie Jar
Fall Line

Peter Yorn - (He's very BECK sounding, but an awesome mellow-kind. Check him out....his music.)
Strange Condition
Sleep Better
Lose You
On Your Side
Girl Like You
You Never Knew

Greenwheel - Breathe "I'm alright, I'm alright, and only it hurts when I breathe, and I can't ask for things to be still again....
ask
The Juliana Theory - Constellation "Words that cant be spoken, and I wanna be selfish, you're my everything, some things can never be explained, but does your love reamin unchanged, i really wouldnt be teh same without you...."
Kelly Clarkson - Thankful

And if you haven't DL'ed these already, hop to it:
Stroke 9 - Do it Again
Jimmy Eat World - My Sundown
Vertical Horizon - Give You Back
Vertical Horizon - You're a God
The Notwist - Consequence
Josh Kelley - Amazing
Jason Mraz - You and I Both
Jason Mraz - I'll Do Anything
Jason Mraz - Sleep All Day
Ryan Adams - La Cienega Just Smiled

Mp3 Babble
So....
I still light up like a candle burning when he calls me up,
I still melt down like a candle burning everytime we touch...... Macy Gray - Still

Coldplay "The Scientist"
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the start.

I was just guessing,
The numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.


FYI: no relevance to my life, but it's cute nonetheless.

I LOVE TO MAKE YOU SMILE, I LOVE TO MAKE YOU LAUGH.... REAL MEATY HARDYHARHAR's!!!
mp3s rockin:Jack Johnson - Holes to Heaven, Greenwheel - Breathe, Peter Yorn - Sleep Better
Julia aim'ed me today that she loves to read my blogs. She enjoys reading them so much, she reads them while she proctors final exams for students. She loves them so much she has to stop herself from busting up in the midst of a test. She loves them so much poor lil testtakers look @ her funny cuz she has a huge smile on her face while proctoring poor students taking exams. MUAHHA.

Life is good.

jewels2525: hey
jewels2525: jess i love ur blogs
jewels2525: esp that story about the shoplifters
UscJessC: do u?
UscJessC: thanks for reading. i appreciate it.
UscJessC: :-)
UscJessC: thanks thanks. it felt real good @ work, to be apart of shoo-ing way per-puh-trators
UscJessC: 8-)
jewels2525: haha was reading while i was proctering
jewels2525: almost busted up laughing in class
jewels2525: so i had this huge smile on my face
jewels2525: and these poor kids... w/ the frowns from finals
jewels2525: just stared at me funny

High on Life
mp3s rockin: Macy Gray - Still, Peter Yorn - Girl Like You, Jimmy Eat World - My Sundown

-Someone looked @ my website today and was takin a look @ the new pictures I uploaded from AGC Talent Show... he took a looksy, and told me, "u guys look like u have a lotta fun." And when he said that, I told him, "yup, we're high on life."

High on Life. That is what we are. To be able to be so happy, to just kick back and be silly, be stupid, be girly, and just be real amongst these gurls, to feel like you have nothing to hold back, is honestly one of the greatest feelings I've had in college. Never have I felt like I couldn't trip, fall, STREAK(muahaha), burp, say something irrelevant, witty, cheesy, sarcastic, meaningful, or whatevers, infront of these people.

We're all individuals with such vast interests, different tastes in music, movies, clothes, styles, studying habits, cleaning habits, yet its the differences that make us love each other. We share our own personal interests with each other, and take on other sisters's interests cuz we wanna check out what our sisters love, are diggin, cuz we care enough to do that and want to do that. What was K-pop to me before I met Grace? Absolutely nothing. I love k-pop now. What was Engineering before I met Mell and Grace? Not much. What was my mp3 collection before I met Mell, Cheryl, Tracy, Mare, Shelly, Mao, Gauvin, Vicky, Anna Chu and everyone other Delta? Ecclectic...but not as ecclectic as it is now. It's funny and ironic how I can hear i certain song in my Winamp, and think of who suggested/exposed it to me.

And let's talk about movies. Helluv movies have significance because I got to see it with them, or talk to them about it, or got them to see it or they got me to see it. I swear. It's all these lil lil lil things, that add up to mean so much to me. So again, today, I say thank you. Thank you to Deltas. Thank you for that bid 4 falls ago in September. Thank you for not making my SC experience into what I thought it'd be..... instead, you've made it out to be better than I ever thought this experience could ever be.

So there you have it. Another reason for why I am grateful for living the life I do.

ROCK YO' BODY cuz DELTAS GONNA ROCK YO' WORLD

Thanks to Ry-Ry Migita, for uploading our AGC Talent Show Hip-HOp Dance Routine
Link: http://www-scf.usc.edu/~migita/deltadance.wmv (cut n paste)

Mission: AGC Talent Show, Sun. May 4th, 2003, 6 PM, USC's Bovard Auditorium
Scenario: We'd beeen practicing hard for about a week and a half, for last night's performance. 16 of us Deltas decided to perform this dance together and whatta bonding experience it was. Yesterday's performance was full of deltalicious energy and high-spirirts. Thank you to all of those Deltas, DeltaHo's, DeltasFans, DeltaBitches(j/k), friends, family, ex-pledge sisters of all deltas..i.e. annette, cindy, xtina choi, michelle, andrea, (am i forgetting anyone else??) who can out to support Deltas. We love you!!!

Memories and Classic DPK Moments: Coach Grace, Costume Designer Sy.. a master with the sccissors, The sweat, tears, time sacraficed, laughs, bags of Teddy Grahams and Chex-Mix consumed, the scent of cheesy ranch Fritos Twists filling the air, ordering in Thai Food, learning to C-walk, Susan Park attempting to find Toilet Paper in Founders, Mell falling asleep smelling the nasty ass carpet in Founders, "washing the car" with our asses.. or was it hula-hooping, or was it what Kri10 said, "Wash it, Buff it, Wax it"--- with your butt, the spies, the group costume fittings, our Partridge Family trip to Big-Kmart Saturday night, 15 of us Asian girls, parading through being the only ASIANS in the entire store, on a mission to find 16 pairs of pants to match baby-blue tshirts, finally settling on $20 JOE BOXER cargos with these diagonal pockets and 8-ball inside pockets, Sy's over-sized cargos, Grace gettin yelled @ by disgruntled Kmart employees for "tresspassing" into the fittin rooms...cuz the fittin rooms apparently close @ 7 pm when the store doesnt close till 11. WTF!?!? Amy's ugly ass flowery costume she decided to model for us when we entered the store, finding white gym socks to use as arm gloves... "gym socks or fishnet stockings, guys?", Susan Park's body rolls, Mare's bad knee that needed icing, shelly's lucky XMAS socks, Hannah's ultimate ass shakin to Xtina, Emily's expert Wet'n'Wild blue eye shimmer, #203's salon's FLAT IRONS turned up to level 21 frying our hair...but dammmmn our hair looked good, singing Avril's Complicated in Topping and dancing to 50 Cent's In Da Club, doing our make-up together, pampering each other as we straighten each other's hair with the FLAT IRONS, using Jess' Watson's Blotting Paper, taking pics @ Tommy T, gettin looks on Jefferson and @ Burger King as strangers see 8 Deltas walkin around asking us why we were all dressed up and lookin good, Audrey sittin on GUM backstage..5 minutes before Call-Time, Ahree's "Uh! What!" Xtina move, Tracy droppin her pants so the world could see that DPK rocks yo' world. Do you understand now, why, DELTAS ROCK YO' WORLD? A week and a half, and soooo many memories to last a lifetime. Yall are my "No. 1!"

I love you, Deltas. Past. Present. Future. If you ain't down with us, you aint' down @ all.

listenin to @ the moment: The Notwist - Consequence.. DL it, courtesy of Tracy, cuz she found this song while riding in a Campus Cruiser with BK.
Peter Yorn - On Your Side
J.Timberlake - Never Again

J.CREW: KILL 'EM WITH KINDNESS

nutshell: I never thought I'd like working retail as much as I do. Today, I had one of them feelings, when you realize, Retail really has some fabulous moments: when you become a pro-active sales associate, on the prowl, to stop potential SHOPLIFTERS. Now read by debrief on: "Shoplifting? Think again -- Kill 'Em With Kindness."

Time and Place of Crime Scene: J.CREW @ The Grove L.A. - Friday 5/2/03 - 6:00 PM on a Drizzling Evening

Crime Scene Situation: On the Retail Sales Floor: Threee Suspicious Teens demonstrating signs of potential 5-finger-ing, 2 Sales Associates practicing fabulous LOSS PREVENTION surveillance from the registers (Trisha and myself), and 1 FABULOUS MANAGER who located the suspicious perpetrators.

What Went Down: Manager noted that these 3 girls are frequent visitors of the store who always show traits of potential "winona" tactics. AKA 5-finger ganking. Manager has to leave for a moment to help a customer, but signals me to "keep tabs" on "3 girls in the front of the store." Jess slyly floats over to the front of the store and acts like she must find "some shelf she can't find, to put a pair of flip flops back into" and "re-fold an entire table of tank tops"... that.. *gasp!* just happen to be in the vicinity of the 3 girls.

Situation: 3 girls float around the front of the store: 1 in puffy jacket with umbrella aka Puffy, 1 in puffy pullover with big pockets aka Pullover, 1 in regular clothes with an umbrella aka Diversion. Puffy, Pullover, and Diversion float around and then Puffy picks up a pair of $48.00 white beach pants off the table by the front, the three walk over to the right side of the store and "chitter-chatter". As I focus intently on "finding the shelf that doesnt really exist" I watch for any suspicious activity. Puffy goes over to a table filled with Polo shirts and a tray with straw flip-flops. She picks up 1 $24.00 Tan Polo and 1 pair of straw flip-flops. The trio continue on the right side of the store, slightly huddled together, chatting away as I float around them to see if they are doing anything fishy. Puffy asks me, "Can I try these on?" I say: "Sure, right this way! Let me take those to the room for you" I open a fitting room for her, and place each individual item of hers down: A. White Beach Pants - Size M, B. Tan Polo - Size S, C. a pair of straw flip-flops. I ask for her name, and she says its BLANCA, I tell her kindly, "Blanca, my name is Jessica. Lemme know if you need anything else!" I leave the fitting room and ask I turn the corner onto the sales floor, Diversion comes up to me and takes me to the POLO table and asks, "Do you have a XS in the white polo?" I reply: "Lemme see if we do. I look through the table quickly. No XS. I tell her, "Lemme go ask the manager." I go ask Manager, manager says no. I return to Diversion and tell her we don't and so, Diversion and Pullover continue floating around the right side of the store and the front of the store.

I decide that it's been a few minutes, so I go and check up on Blanca.
Jess: "Blanca, how you doin' in there?"
Blanca: "Oh, I'm fine. Thank you."
Jess: "Ok, lemme know if you need anything."
(jess leaves to go help another customer with a fitting room. Jess comes back to Blanca's fitting room and Blanca comes out of fitting room with Tan Polo on and White Beach Pants in her hand)
Blanca: "Do you think you could get me a M in the Polo? And these Pants are a bit too long."
Jess: "Yes, of course. I'll go get you the shirt." (Blanca hands pants back to Jess, Jess gets the shirt for Blanca)
***now because the Manager had warned Jess of the potential shoplifters, Jess decides to peek into the pants, to see if Puffy had cut off the PRICE TAG and/or the SEWN-IN SECURITY SENSOR TAG.****
**drumrolll* Low and behold, Jess finds that the PRICE TAG and SEWN-IN SECURITY SENSOR TAG had be... CUT OFF!!! Jess hurries to tell the Manager of the situation.
Manager: "Jess, go check up on Blanca again and I'll keep an eye on the posse."
(Jess goes into fitting rooms)
Jess: (specifically said with enthusiasm) "Blanca, how is the Medium Polo fitting? And how are those slippers?"
Blanca: "Oh, they are great. I think I'm going to get both"
Jess: "Great!"
(Jess goes to find manager)
Manager: "Get her out of the room" ( As soon as manager says this, Blanca comes out of fitting rooms and goes to register, passing by Manager and Jess. Blanca walks over to register where sales associate sees that Blanca is a bit-sweaty and alert. Trisha: "Are you OK!?!?!?"
Blanca:"Yes." (not confidently, as she goes on to buy the polo and slippers)
**At this time Manager and Jess huddle closer to the front of the store and the door to keep tabs on POSSE and to see if they attempt to drop "sensor tags" in the store or steal. As POSSE is around the door area, customers are coming in, and to alert POSSE that "they are being watched", Manager and Jess great customers LOUDLY, "Hi, welcome to J.CREW!!!!!"

POSSE of Puffy, Pullover, and Diversion leave. Sans any J.Crew Merchandise. =)

AFTERMATH: After they left the Sales team searched the store to see if the SENSOR TAGS could be found, and BLANCA's fitting room was swept for any tags. No tags were found, but.........

LESSON TO BE LEARNED: ...evidence shows, BLANCA was indeed, a PERPETRATOR, along with her supporting cast of THUGS, attempting to STEAL WHITE BEACH PANTS, but because of the AMAZING sales team of J.CREW, the crime was thrwarted. And Justice prevailed. The Sales Associate team "KILLED 'EM WITH KINDNESS." Show 'em great customer service, let them know nicely that you are aware of every piece of merchandise they have with them and the perpetrators will.. RUN FOR THE HILLSSS!! If you ever think about shoplifting at J.CREW, think again. We will kill you with kindness, and have you running for your life. We're watching. =)

FRICKIN FUNNY TRAM B READING

On the infamous TRAM B, the USC upholstered bus (with the uber-godawful fragrance of body funk) that takes students roundtrip from campus-to-off-campus housing, I was reading an article about MARGARET CHO. Here's a funny excerpt.

"DOES MARGARET CHO HAVE SARS?" This All-American Girl is Ready to Sink DOwn to Your Level"
by Minnie Chi

Recently returned from the Canadian leg of her REVOLUTION tour, Marget Cho got more attention than she bargained for on the streets of Toronto. A few uber-paranoid Canadians immediately covered their faces with surgical masks at the sight of Korean-American Cho, not because she looked sickly or coughed up chunks of lung, but because she's Asian adn therefore capable of carrying the deadly SARS virus. Naturally, discrimination does not sit well with the Notorious Cho and she dealt with it in the only way one would expect her to.

"I stopped right in front of them, collapsed to the ground and started coughing dramatically. I tried to reach over to touch one of them, yelping 'Help me!' and they were flipping out," she says gleefully. "It was hilarious because they were just so scared of my reaction. My trouring group and I were dying laughing. Like, fuck those guys! Who do they think they are? I don't have SARS just because I'm Asian! Most people would say to jsut walk away and not to sink to their level and I'm like 'No, i AM going to sink down to their level' cause that's funny and you know what? They're not going to do that to someone else because they realized I was fucking with them after some time and of course they were busted."

If find Margaret Cho to be exceptionally hilarious. Can you tell?

I WANNA.....
random outbursts of: "I WANNA's"........enjoy the provoking thoughts of my incredible mind.

I WANNA:
-go skydiving asap!
-go to NYC
-go to Dodger's Game this season with Tin, Skesser, My Sisters, and anyone else who's down for Boyz, Beers, and Dawgggs...and the Dodgers of course! Awwwww yeahhh!!! Who be down!?!?
-go to a concert: i.e. Matchbox Twenty, Maroon 5, John Mayer, Stroke 9, and for Sandy's sake, I owe going to a concert with her too, sometime this summer.
-get a fun, exciting job in Publicity somewhere asap
-cook my heart out with a billion new cool kitchen appliances...coooking up recipes galore. I LOVE TO COOK. wait.. did you catch that? If you didn't: I LOVE TO COOK.
-get a grill and grill my heart out. Grilled Maple Glazed Salmon, Pork Tenderloin, Steak, Shrimp, Chicken, Grilled EVERYTHING. I wanna make some kick ass RIBS too.
-make to-die-for desserts. Indulge indulge indulge! Wolfgang Puck says: "Live, Love, and Eat!" I CONCUR.
-speakin of cooking, I want people to eat the food I cook, and think, "Damn I wish she was in my kitchen." =) Think --> "way to a man's heart is through his stommmmach!!!!" Yea-ahhhhh! *wink wink*
-tan my bottom 50% and my bosom. I'm terribly "not-tan".
-make enough $ in 5-10 years, and buy my daddy a nice-ass ride.
-FULL-SIZE BED, own bedroom, for once in my life. Doesn't look too likely as of now though.
-learn how to play the guitar
-learn photography (repeat)
- seduce the world with my fabulous massages. Succumb to jess' power!!!!
-find WORTHY, QUALITY men out in this subpar world. I have FAITH that they are out there, but WHERE, bring them over to me and my gals. ASAP. With a 9-1-1 quickness.
-be a TEAM LEADER in some sorta way. I lurrrrrrrve working with a team and inspiring peeps and keeping everyone's spirits high and light!
-look @ "my man" (whoever that may be in the future) and be able to breathe a sigh of relief @ him, and say and think, "Damn, you make me happy!"
-make YOUR LIFE better, happier, greater, in my own miraculous way!
-learn how to love... cuz it's bout-f'in-time.
-kick my wall to the curb...cuz again, it's b-f-t.
-meet more P.B.M. ..... know what that encodes? Ask me if you dunno.
-see MICHAEL VARTAN or G.CLOONEY

Ok. That's it for now. If you can make any of this stuff happen, I owe you the world. A piece of it, at the very least. Forever grateful!

Since you've read my wanna's, I wanna know your wanna's. So feel free to lemme know what you wanna...... (this rhymes, and I'm being serious too!)

Have a great day, superstars!!!

Procastination leads to: JESS STRATEGIZING
FUTURE GOALSand ACCOMPLISHMENTS
as she aims to take over the world, in a
positive way, by making a difference, in the future.

Ok, it's 11:38 @ night, I've watched alias, wrote 2 blog
entries, and here I am on my third entry for the day. hehhe.
Ok, below are a few upcoming goals/methods of making a difference to the world in the near future.
1. learn photography and be a photographer
2. be a teacher @ the end of my career lifespan, teach lil kids, inquire about the
teachforamerica.org program.
3. open a hip Asian Tapas Bar with my blood sisters some where in California. Offering lovely scrumptious Pan-Asian Fusion bites that are to-die-for, definitely offering an awesome Happy Hour atomosphere, catering to yuppie and the Happy Hour 20-30something crowd, with an amazing bar, and bar selection cuz alcohol can be overpriced up to 300%, whith phenomenal customer service and relations (courtesy of me), great foood (courtesy of kat and myself), and great design and boutiquey feel (i guess, courtesy of wei, all of us).
4. make my own movies or something creative, artistic, that evokes emotional outpouring from every member of my audience. painting? photos? art? Who knows. Maybe everything.
5. I wanna move people. engage people. make others feel valued and appreciated. i wanna create. leave an artistic mark on my peers. the world. make this world a better place. make a difference. share the love. feel the love. and hopefully, get some of all of that back in return.....@ some point.

as you can probably tell, i have big dreams. huge ones. and i plan on sharing all of the future glory with my peoples. you know who you are. you know what, life seems great @ this moment, this second, cuz I have sooooOooOoOO much to look forward to, it seems insane. See all of you down the road in the future, cuz I WILL remember you, now will you remember me?

Ok. I know. I'm ALIAS obssessed.

Here is a rant on why this is. =)










I don't care how crazy ya'll think I am. But, doode,
I love ALIAS like no other show on earth. This is my
ULTRA-RANDOMNESS moment right now, so sit back, buckle your seat belt, pull up your socks, button your pants, zip up the zippers, cuz get ready, for my RANT on ALIAS... the best show tooo many of you are NOT watching. =)

ALIAS
What: spy drama
When: Sunday nights @ 9, on ABC... 2-hour season finale Sunday May 4th, 2003
Who: stars Jennifer Garner (eye candy for the boyz), and the hottest man on earth, MICHAEL VARTAN (extreemmme eye candy for the girls)
Why you should watch it:
1. Jennifer Garner and Michael Vartan are AMAZINGG.
2. The plots are fully engaging, smartly written, has depth, great character development, ain't boring, keeps you thoroughly entertained with action, booty, drama, comedy, the whole 9 yards, and michael vartan!!!!
3. It's a tv show, with 22 new episodes each season, which, UNLIKE a movie, is a continuing saga the quench your thirst 22 weeks outta the year, not including repeats. I used to think I loved movies way more than tv. Then I realized, shiet, a movie is something that comes out after a long wait, gives you 2 hours of entertainment, and then DONE. Nothing more to offer after that. That 2 hour is the lifespan. No prompt sequels, upcoming episodes (sequels that are made 1, 2, 3, or more years after don't count, cuz the lifespan just doesn't cut it.) Anyways, so yeah, each with the story develops, more stuff happens, things aren't rushed into 2 hours in a theatre. People can be strangers, friends, acquaintences with MAJOR angst going on between them, enemies, a couple, a married twosome, etc. etc.

It's way more satisfying watching a one-hour drama like ALIAS, cuz I've got something on tv to look forward to, something to look forward to besides "Gilmore Girls, Punk'd, The Real World/Road Rules Battle of the Sexes, SATC" just to name a few... now that always makes life slightly easier to handle. Anyways, it's kinda like your favorite movie, but with more chapters that follow. Dunno bout you, but sometimes I love a movie so much, that I wished there was more after the movie, having that "what happens now?" question and wondering, cuz this movie fully engaged your artistic appetite, ESCAPISM at its finest! So yeah, movies come and go, but tv shows, like alias, are ongoing creative tellings of engaging stories, that can last a year, or two, or more, as ALIAS has proven.

This is the show to watch. This is the show that you need to watch, but haven't been watching. So tune in next sunday!!!

FYI: For those of you that know you, ya'll know that I have loved GEORGE CLOONEY for foreeever. And I hate to admit it, but he has been dethroned by.........*drumroll* Michael Vartan!!!! He's my new numero uno!!!!! Is it me or is there a hot piece of ass up in here!?!?! ---->
------> click on following links!

As they say, "Wouldn't kick that outta bed" (no pun intended!) ---> http://www.vartanhopics.com/pics/caps/s2/215/pfa3.jpg
ok, ok, a more sensible picture: http://www.alias-media.com/modules.php?op=modload&name=My_eGallery&file=index&do=showpic&pid=876&orderby=titleA

i could eat him up with a spoon! =P
Ok. have a great day, everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

An awesome song I found.... with awesome lyrics.....

Gigolo Aunts - My Favorite Regret

Will you be my favorite regret?
Could I be your sweetest mistake?
Trade one step back for two ahead...
Just a little time that's all
Don't be afraid to fall
This catch I won't forget
My favorite regret

Won't you let me chip away the stone?
Are you really better off alone?
Won't you let your guard down one more time
Just like I've done mine
We'll look until we find something neither will forget
My favorite regret

Will you be my favorite regret?
Cut the strings attached but save the thread
And I know your feelings are probably right
But just this once tonight as you lay in your bed
Place a little on this bet
My favorite regret....

Listening To: Matchbox Twenty - Hand Me Down
Wouldn't This Be Sweet... To Find Someone Who Could Say This, Offer This and Feel This? I'd say so.
(read the lyrics below..cuz they kick major asss)

Why i like the lyrics? It's about giving.... and I wonder if any guy are in any way CAPABLE of the big G-word: Giving. Sometime I wonder if people, especially guys, realize what give-n-take is. Give-n-take is crucial, and if their ain't no giving from your end, you ain't taking none of me, no-sir-reee.

Someday they'll find your small town world on a big town avenue
Gonna make you like the way they talk when they're talking to you
Gonna make you break out of the shell cause they tell you to
Gonna make you like the way they lie better than the truth
They'll tell you everything you wanted someone else to say
They're gonna break your heart, yeah

From what I've seen
You're just a one more hand me down
Cause no one's tried to give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now

Somebody ought to take you in
Try to make you love again
Try to make you like the way they feel
When they're under your skin
Never once did think they'd lie when they're holding you
You wonder why they haven't called
When they said they'd call you
You start to wonder if you're ever gonna make it by
You'll start to think you were born blind

I'm here for the hard times
The straight to your heart times
Whenever it ain't easy
You can stand up against me
And maybe rely on me
And cry on me, yeah
Oh no, no, no

Some day they'll open up your world
Shake it down on a drawing board
Do their best to change you
They still can't erase you

Lay them down on me
Oh yeah
You're just one more hand me down
And all those nots don't give you what you need
So lay all your troubles down...on me

OK. Welcome Back. To Myself. And You.

What's up: THE REAL CANCUN!!!!!!!!! OFF THE HEEEZEEE!
Ok, so today, lovely Tin was able to get enough tickets for lovely older sister kat, skesser, and susie, and myself, to see New Line's THE REAL CANCUN. Lemme tell ya, OFF THE HEEEZEEE. It's realllly fun to watch, the audience gets involved with all the T & A that's flyin everywhere. It was crazy fun watching with the gurls and everyone in the theatre.

What is THE REAL CANCUN: mtv's real world/road rules creater Bunnim/Murray follow 16 co-eds, picked to live together for a week in cancun with each other and party, party, party, drink, drink, drink. I advise all college kids to watch it. It's worthy of no critical acclaim, but is worth watchin just for the hell of it, and for the guilty pleasure of watching people make complete fooools of themselves, and to see people do things you would NEVER consider doing. i.e. wet t-shirt contests basically buttttt-ass naked, whore-ing around, and just being an utter fool/pimp/nerd/whatevers.

Tin, Kat, Skess, susie, and I wanna go to cancun for spring break sometime in the future. I think that would be rad, and offf-the-heeeezeeeee. I can't wait. =)

To Myself: Welcome Back.

So it's been a while since my last entry. Almost a month. What's new. Abso-frickin-lutely not much. Time flies, in the meanwhile, nothing seems to have changed much. Still in search of a job, more of myself, and a certain someone to fill that looming void. Looking back at my calendar of events, it's been dry of everything. But this week, there's a career fair goin on thrown together by annenberg, so I'm looking forward to that. omg. I have nothing exciting to say right now. Come back soon, maybe I'll have something intiguing to say then. Sorry for the dull entry.

RO-CO Movie Moments: The Movie Moments that Move the Jess-Spot

Below are a couple of movie moments thats are cute/captivating/amazing/great to me. It's cheesy. And I don't care. But I know some of you special people out there will enjoy em!

TWO WEEKS NOTICE:
George's lil speech to Lucy - "...She's rather like the building she loves so much. A little rough around the edges, but when you look closely, she's absolutely beautiful, and the only one of her kind. And even though I've said cruel things and driven her away, she's become the voice in my head, and I can't seem to drown her out. And I don't want to drown her out.So we are going to keep the community center because I gave my word to her and because we gave our word to the community..."

HOW TO LOSE A GUY IN 10 DAYS:
At the DeLaur Gala... Annie goes on stage and makes a lil impromptu introduction.....
Annie: “A lot of you out here don’t know Benjamin Barry. Well, shame..on….you. Cause he’s a very talent advertising executive and knowledgeable sports fan, and a waggggggggering enthusiast. But most impressively, he is one helluva singer, and he has prepared a musical ssssnack for his new special friend, Mrs. DeLaur. So Ben, why don’t you come up here, and sing your song! C'mon Ben!"

Ben: "Tonight, the really special event from her and I, is a duet. Yes, here's Ms. Andie Anderson, please give a warm round of applause!" *begin singing You're So Vain by Carly Simon...*

Ben: "Yeah..yeah.yeah… You walked into the party, like you were walkin onto a yacht. You had your hat pulled down real strategically over one eye. You had….
Annie: “It's Stratigically TIPPED over one eye! And then all the girls think that they'd be your partner, they be his partner…cuz he’s so vainnn,
Ben Barry youre so vain. That you probably think this song is about you.. don’t you..dont you..dont you…. You Fooled me to win a bet, you shoud feel ashamed.
Ben: "You took me to a god damn Celine Dion concert, you made me miss the big game!!"
Annie: "Oooh, smart guy’s a rhymer!! Well, did we want everybody to know your lovingmaking is laaaaaaa-mmmeee?
Ben: "Well you named my penis, yeah, you named my penis after a daaaammme."
Annie: "I really think you have to get over that."

Another part:
Ben: Bullshit
Annie:You callin me bluff?
Ben: You bet I am. *smooch smooch* Look who made the trip with me (motions to a fern plant on motocycle)
Annie: It's our LOVE FFERN!!!! Oh, Bennnny Booo Booo-BBBooooo!

THE LOVEBUG: v2003

Los Angeles, CA - Around the USC Campus recently, the love bug has hit, and it is a force to be reckoned with. Recent love bug activity around the SC area has been registered and certain unnamed individuals have become victims of this euphoric medical condition. Bug bites would usually register as BAD NEWS, but the onset of LOVE BUG: v2003 has heightened the emotional levels and has improved the HAPPY levels of many. TBD: If this bug ever hits me. Check back with me in 10 years. Maybe this bug bite will surface with yours truly by then. Fingers crossed.

fix

AFTERNOON SOAP OPERA TALK SHOWS: The Showcase of the Gutter of our Society

So before catching the tram today to school, I decided to watch some tv. I flip it on, and see that The Maury Povich(sp?) Show is on. I'll have you know, this show used to have quality topics, but has turned into a Jenny Jones. I read the bottom left corner: (topic) Are you the father of my child: Paternity Suits. There's this big black mother onstage, and this big black guy on stage. Maury busts open the Paternity Test, and *drumrolll* he isn't the father of her 8-month old child. She stalks weeping, and walks backstage, and Maury asks, "Do you want us to help find the father of your child?" She agrees. While she agrees, she says, "oh my sister is goin to be upset!" Maury asks why.. cuz this girl slept with her sister's fiance too, so he could possibly be the father.

So in a future episode maury brings her back, and the sister's fiance... turns out, he's not the father either. And the woman is like, "i knew it. i knew it couldnt be him"...and then maury tells her "Will" is the father. And then, she BEGINS SOBBING AGAIN...and is like, "Noooo, nooooo. God no. He's not father material." She continues weeping and repeating.

Okay, my take on this: the woman needs to stop sleepin aronud and start CLOSING HER LEGS. Shame on her for even sleeping with someone of such low caliber. Is it the sex that she wants so bad? What is wrong with these people!?!?! She's had sex with so many guys she can't even figure out who the father of her child is! And to add to that, she sleeps with her sister's fiance?!?! And shame on the sister's fiance for sleeping with his fiance's sister!!! What is wrong with people today?!?! AND THEY HAVE TO AIR OUR THEIR DIRTY LAUNDRY on NATIONAL TV!!! Do they understand how HORRIBLE they look. What kind of reputation and impression they leave on viewers!?!?! Anyways, that's my absurd story for the day. I hope you enjoyed. And shame on me, too, for watching this crap!!! =)

Good Lyrics:

Jennifer Paige
Here With Me

In my head
I have dreams
I have visions of many things
Questions longings in my mind

Pictures fill my head
I feel so trapped instead
But trapped doesn't seem so bad
Cause you are here

CHORUS
It doesn't mean anything
Without you here with me
And I can try to justify
But I still need you here with me

In my heart I had hope
Built on dreams I'll never know
Answers to love left behind
Visions filled my head

I felt so trapped instead
But trapped didn't seem so bad
Cause you were near

CHORUS
It doesn't mean anything
Without you here with me
And I can try to justify
But I still need you here with me

I can't do anything without you
You give me strength to do anything
And I can't be everything I try to
You saved me from the everything I couldn't be

CHORUS
It doesn't mean anything
Without you here with me
And I can try to justify
But I still need you here with me

Need you here with me
I need you here with me

Delta Secret Service: Now Accepting Qualified Field and Online Agents

Current Aliases:
1.Agent DD
2.Agent M
3.Agent Goo
4.Agent Bang Sang (real conspicuous!)

Be a Secret Service of One. Now Accepting applications!! AIM: uscjessc

WHo'S the BEST? Agent Bang Sang

SANGkyooVERYmuch: the second time i watched titanic... I was like "bitch share the log
SANGkyooVERYmuch: haha
UscJessC: share the log? it was gonna sink with 2 of em on it!
SANGkyooVERYmuch: no
SANGkyooVERYmuch: that's what she wanted him to think
UscJessC: ewwwwwwwwww. youre a romance party pooper!
SANGkyooVERYmuch: ;-)
SANGkyooVERYmuch: hehe
UscJessC: he was being the MAN
SANGkyooVERYmuch: doesn't matter if ur the man and dead
SANGkyooVERYmuch: !!!
SANGkyooVERYmuch: :-D
UscJessC: omg.. sang.. u know if the love of your life was cold in the water.. you';d give her the log!
SANGkyooVERYmuch: yea
UscJessC: and you'd tread on the side, floating..
UscJessC: cuz you're that kind of man.
UscJessC: 8-)
SANGkyooVERYmuch: but i would also try to look for another thing to float on
UscJessC: i would to if i were jack.
SANGkyooVERYmuch: cuz im also a resourceful/practical kinda guy
UscJessC: heheh
SANGkyooVERYmuch: haha
SANGkyooVERYmuch: stupid ass
--Sang rules.

More Coolness!
SANGkyooVERYmuch: did i stumble on delta secret service?
SANGkyooVERYmuch: =-O
UscJessC: totally.
UscJessC: it's a joke.
UscJessC: dd is a joke is what im saying
SANGkyooVERYmuch: dd = ?
UscJessC: bra size.
SANGkyooVERYmuch: can i be agent sang?
UscJessC: not mine.
SANGkyooVERYmuch: icic
UscJessC: agent sang is kinda boring.
UscJessC: gotta spice it up!
SANGkyooVERYmuch: agent bang?
SANGkyooVERYmuch: haha
UscJessC: sounds good.
SANGkyooVERYmuch: no
SANGkyooVERYmuch: haha
UscJessC: agent bang sang u r
SANGkyooVERYmuch: sANGbANG not bang sang
SANGkyooVERYmuch: latter sound bad :-\
*drumroll* Agent Bang Sang you are! Congrats and welcome to the Delta Secret Service!!!! *muah!*

freedom by David Gray
take your eyes off me
there's nothing here to see
just trying to keep my head together
and as we make our vow
let us remember how
there's nothing good that lasts forever

time out on the running boards
we're running
through a world that lost its meaning
trying to find a way to love
this running ain't no kind of freedom

feel the touch of grief
you stand in disbelief
can steal the earth from right beneath you
and falling in so far
they know just where you are
yeah but there ain't no way to reach you

time out on the running boards
we're running
through a world that lost its meaning
trying to find a way to love
this running ain't no kind of freedom
yeah yeah

its time to clean these boats
fold up these parachutes
the words goodbye but I can't say it
the end is close at hand I think we understand
there ain't no use trying to delay it

time out on the running boards
we're running
through a world that lost its meaning
trying to find a way to love
this running ain't no kind of freedom
freedom freedom

fasten on my mask
i'm bending to the task
I know this work is never finished
and if I close my eyes
I can still see you dancing laughing loud and undiminished

check

Amy Fu's quote:"To me, sisterhood is giving your last toilet paper square to your sis in the next stall, even after taking a big s*%!#." --To Deltas, I give you my last square. Any day.

Theme: FORMALS 2003 - Le Meridian Hotel, Beverly Hills, California
Music Title to Describe My Mood: I'm On a High, On a High, On a High - Duncan Sheik ... This mood isn't changing anytime soon.

Life. Deltas. Formals. Lucky. Fabulous people. Le Meridian is the greatest place. Everything on Saturday was just sooo rad. soo awesome. A perfect ending to the best 4 years of my life. 4 years filled with: Love - for and love from true sisters, Dreams - more than I could ever imagine I have lived, having accomplished quite a few of the dreams I set out for as a Senior in high school. School - getting into Annenberg School of Communication, finally. Life - the balancing act of school, family, friends, deltas, work, internships, movies, music, aim, etc. etc.

Love: deltas was my calling. In a slice of the world I was able to build myself in every possible way. The people who kept me true to myself, to have grown immensely but to have kept the innocence and values I have held onto through out my entire life. Never losing myself - to peer pressure, to all the shittyness in the world that exist, to have lived a fulfilling 4 years. Life doesn't get better than this. Deltas - my antiDrug. hehehe.

Dreams: some of the dreams I have accomplished. In high school, I told my friends that someday I would see/meet Michelle Pfeiffer, Tom Hanks, Brad Pitt and other stars, as I hoped to make movies in my future as LA was my future. And who knew, by the time I was a Jr., I was interning in Publicity @ New Line Cinema. I worked the I AM SAM press junket and movie premiere, and got to see .. Michelle Pfeiffer... in a work related atmosphere..not just going to the mall adn seeing them. And from then to now, I'm living part of my dream, as my dream has become my reality. Getting experience in college before I head out to the real world, and having this amazing opportunities.... sometimes I find all this surreal.

School: from coming in as Undeclared..going to Business Admin....to finally deciding on Communication, I found my true calling. The facilities are the best on campus, the resources and networking are incredible, and this school works for the students. I am amazed by what USC has given me and leave SC having acheived many things I didn't even imagine I would do, complete, etc.

Life: Balancing all of these. Feeling fulfilled. Feeling incredible. Feeling as if I'm ready for the rest of the world, the rest of life. I'm prepared. But still there's this empty space.... for what? You tell me. I know it's an empty space that needs to be filled....in time.. with the right "variable" .. someday it'll happen. Cuz what goes around comes around. And my realistic optimist mindset tells me that.

With so much I have, I only live to give some of my happiness, my fullfillment, my spirit, my soul to all those important peeps in my life. If you ever need someone to talk to, to just sit with you, to help you out, tow atch reality tv with, please do ask. I'm ready to give you my last toilet paper square. I am.

OK.In homage..and that is, HO-MAAAGE to mell, I will have a lovely FORMALS BEST list as well after attending 8 informal/formals. My god I'm frickin old.

Best Formals That I Have Been To.... All were great of course. =)
1. Alpha Pi - My Own Dammit. No reason is even needed. Hot escort.
2. Alpha Tau - This years. They're my daughters. The one I invested myself into the most. And whatta Hotel and whatta waltz. Had a super time with my Hot escort who's one of my best friends, too.
3. Alpha Sig - Took Lil Bro sang who was soo fun. And BIG DANCE FLOOR. And great booty music.
4. Alpha Rho - Love you Alpha Rho, had a great time, but living with AP day-to-day, their greatness is even more amazing then me having to rank formals. hehe.

Top Formals Dinners
1. Alpha Tau - The food @ Le Meridian is the best. I demand formals to be here everytime from now on. Great caesar salad in parmasean cheese bowl, great chicken that wasn't DRY for once, and great pear tart with real vanilla bean ice cream
2-4. who cares. The food sucked. hahahahah.

More BEST OF FORMALS.... LIST in 2 hours. Blogger is upgrading hardware.

S-T-R-E-S-S.

That is the theme for the week. Homework due Wed. Paper due Thursday. Event Thursday. Flowers Friday. Class Friday. Work Friday. Errands from. Event Friday. Formals Saturday. Wahhhhhhhhhhhh. The stress. But what I know is, everyone is here with me, with stress. Together. So i guess that makes it better? hahah. =)

Welcome to the Other Side

Today is Sunday. And I was awake for 28 hours lapsing from Saturday. It was a long long long day. But for a good reason. For 13 reasons. For my bundles of joy have made it to the light, have made it to the other side. It's phenomenal how I've been doing this for 3 years, and it gets you everytime. You see the reasons why you care so much, you see how you've shaped our present, our reality, how you have given something intangible to "sister"s that were strangers only 5 months ago. Life is good today. Life has been good since the Fall of '99. A long time ago that was, but what a ways to have traveled in almost 4 years. I've discovered myself. Learned. Given back. And I have seen the true goodness in the world: what it means to be one, what it means to sacrafice, what it means to have someone that's there for you, and you for them. No questions asked. Because, that's what sisterhood is.

All of this was never forced upon me. This is and has been something I wanted, something I wanted to give back. This has all be a choice. And what a wonderful, amazing, captivating, memerizing journey this has been. As we walk together toward the future, we are as they say, together as one.

xOxO's to my 13 Bundles of Joy.... Alpha Tau... wow. hehehe. Congratulations, you have come to where you all aimed to come all along: The Other Side. --Pmommy Jess........and like they say, "if you don't know, now you know."..now do you know the muffin man?

*Word to the Wise*

From my d-daughter Emily...
">>ALPHA TAU<<
~*~ 13 strong, 13 together ~*~
~*~ see you on the other side ~*~

i have other 12 girls who...
i can trust...
i can depend on...
who are in this for the long run...
who are going to be there for me and experiencing it with me...
we're in this TOGETHER alpha tau......
;-)13x*mUaH*
LOVE YA ALPHA TAU~!!!!!!!!!!!!"

This is what my life is all about.

Learning to Breathe

Learning to care is like learning to breathe. Once you get it, it becomes subconscious. It's part of you. It's forever. Now can you get there? Can you Really get there? Take the risk. Take the dive.

ALIAS
I am now addicted to this show. Michael Vartan is the new addition of IT man in my world. Sooo hot sooo dreamy. This show kicks ass because A. Jennifer Garner is a good-lookin spy who kicks ass, literally. B. Michael Vartan is hottie Boy Scout co-worker of hers and C. they are finally hooking up. What's not to like!?!?

....I almost forgot.......To those who do respond to teh previous entry with thoughts like: "Who is she kidding?", "She's too invovled with it!", "Is that her WHOLE life?", "Does she do anything else?", "What she's writing is sooo girly, soooo naive, soooo etc." I'll VALIDATE myself by saying that I go to school, I intern to pave way for my future career, I work @ J.CREW to make money, I do plenty of other things, so to rest-your-heart and keep your mind @ ease, I have another life outside of my "bubble". Any more questions, comments, concerns I can clarify for you?

Why don't "GUYS", or certain "GUYS" believe that ONE person can make a/the difference?

I live in this bubble. This bubble where everyone I need in my life are in this bubble. In this bubble, I feel safe, I trust what I say, do, feel, and think with all these people inside the bubble. Now how did I get the gift of being able to have this sacred bubble? You know who you are. Hint: I've spent 4 years in this.

Okay. Many people aren't as fortunate in their life to have what I have, to have experienced everything I have, and many people might listen to/read what I say here, and think, "Who is she kidding?", "She's too invovled with it!", "Is that her WHOLE life?", "Does she do anything else?", "What she's writing is sooo girly, soooo naive, soooo etc." But if you really know me, know what is truly dear to me, what values I hold sooo damn close to my heart, you'll know that what I say, is exactly what I feel, is exactly what I am, and if you can't respect that, it is TRULY your loss, and I only wish that you could EXPERIENCE something like this ONCE in your life. Only then, will you understand EVERYTHING.

Ok. back to How One Person Can Make A Difference. In this, "sorority" bubble, I've learned alot, been given alot, and I feel that it's my place to GIVE BACK, to INSPIRE, to LEAD, to MOTIVATE, and to truly step away from this after 4 years, giving everything I can give, so those strangers that will someday enter THIS world, will be given the most worthwhile experience and gift I have ever received. Now, do I think this because I'm a girl? Cuz I wonder, do guys think the same thing? Are they as appreciative, EVER, in their life of something like this? Cuz I know some guys have this, or THOUGHT that have this, or know that have this, but have lost this. Are guys as inquisitive, do they look deep within and truly see what they have right infront of them, and are tooo lazy, ignorant, and jaded to see a GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY? I know I'm speaking hella vague. If only I had the balls to be BLATANT, in-your-face about what I'm talking about. If you're one of my gurls, you know EXACTLY what I'm talking about.

Nothing frustrates me more than seeing a group of people, sitting on a golden opportunity, not realizing how good of a gift they have, and they just sit there, thinking that the golden opportunity exists on its own, without need for care, nourishment. Someone once told me that "it's easy to be number one, the tough part is staying there." Many people tell me "practice what you preach." I, fore one, strive to stay number one, and i strive to practice what I preach. I know many people in my bubble that do the same. So how can I help make those in other lazy bubbles see how great their bubbles can be???

I think they can start by respecting each of their peeps in their bubble. Building a deeper relationship within that bubble. Everyone did the took the same journey in getting inside the bubble, so what makes you better than any of the others inside? Sure, everyone is in that bubble, and if there are any other perpetrating bubbles that come and punk on this bubble, those inside this bubble with join hands and fight the dickhead bubble....but are those inside this bubble there for each other on a daily basis, up-to-date in their lives? Sure you'll bust you balls for them, but how bout exercising that other part, the heart, the mind? Quit being a hardass, and start being a fellow member inside the damn bubble.

I see how great your bubble can be, I see that some of those inside of this bubble are losing heart, so I leave this entry, SCREAMING, HOPING for you to hear: "Everyone can make a difference, and within everyone, there's definitely one that CAN make the difference. Everyone else needs to stop being a jackass, and look towards the people that wish to make a positive change, to make improvements, to stop bitchin about everything that sucks. If you're gonna bitch, you best have a suggestion on how to make things better. Otherwise shut the hell up cuz you're bringing down everyone else. Words are like drugs. Drugs can improve the body. Hurt the body. Motivate the body. Infect a body. What you say can make things better..or make things worse. Move the mind and you'll move the heart....and you'll move towards the better direction in your bubble, in your life, in the life of the bubble.....if you only dare to care........"

"The power of speech has the same effect on the condition of the soul as the application of drugs to the state of bodies; for just as different drugs dispell different fluids from the body, and some bring an end to disease but others end life, so also some speeches cause pain, some pleasure, some fear; some instill courage, some drug and bewitch the soul with a kind of evil persuasion." --Gorgias' Encomium of Helen-------- I BEG YOU.. dare to care. within yourself. within in what group. within whatever organization. company. family. whatevers.

I know I'm talking all analogical, (is that even a word?), but I hope those I'm directing my message to, will read, and understand that I do truly care..DEEPLY, and hope minds with change, and minds will be motivated to make a difference in the world, in any way, shape, size, or form. It matters. To everyone. And if you need reassurance in making a move, a change for the better, I'll be the one there to encourage you to keep going. Make a difference. Get off your ass. Just give a S*it. Please?!?!

Who wants good music?

My newest form of finding new music is by watching Reality TV.... More specifically, MTV's The Real World, or Road Rules, believe it or not. I watch the episode, and listen to the music they play in the background, and on MTV.COM, they list the songs played. Recently, I found the artist, BINOCULAR's song, "YOU" and through that I dl'ed a lot of his songs and they are AMAZING. It's like whitey soft alternative, with great lyrics, great guitar, and great everything!! Below are some of the great stuff I'm listening to on my WinAmp!!!
BINOCULAR - You: Deep: Dont Say Goodbye, Say Goodnight: Everything Turns:
RUBYHORSE - Sparkle: Any Day Now:
AM60 - Big As The Sky: Eyes on You: Just a Dream:
RYAN ADAMS - La Cienega Just Smiled:
SIXPENCE NONE THE RICHER - Don't Dream It's Over
FROU FROU - Breathe In: It's Good to Be in Love: Maddening Shroud: Must Be Dreaming: Hear Me Out: ....everything of hers is good actually. =)
TONIC: Head on Straight:
MAROON 5: This Love: She Will Be Loved: Harder To Breathe: Sunday Morning:
DISHWALLA: Angels or Devils: Somewhere in the Middle: Every Little Thing:
CHRISTINA AGUILERA: Blessed:

Please do download those if you care, and if you love, like, hate, do tell me!!!!

With many of my friends.. i.e. Deltas and Gammas gone to the slopes of Big Bear.. I have been left in LA to work, watch endless amounts of tv, cook, vege, and work. How I wish i were on the slopes snowboardin like a bunny! With this long weekend, I've been left with plenty of time to rack my brain... something I do when I have spare time, free time, no time.
-A Walk To Remember: yes, a cheesy movie, but such cute moments were apart of that movie. Granted that the first 15 minutes had some shitty editing, Shane West and Mandy Moore i do love.
High points: Popular boy Landon Carter fallin for "granola-y/religious/innocent/bad-fashion sense/butterfly behind the catipillar" Jamie Sullivan
-Good girls with good morals do rule! There's nothing wrong with being a good girl, dammit.
-Faith. Faith in whatever you care to have faith in. Love. The true goodness of people below the hardass crust they like to show the world. Religion. That goodness will win over bad/mean-spirited people. That you'll find someone...for you. Yourself. That you will succeed. Be happy.
-The Movie's soundtrack. it's reallllly damn great. Mandy Moore. Switchfoot. Great songs... find it on Amazon.com, and dl the tracks from the movie.
-That maybe out there, in this SICK world, out side of my "live in the movies" world, where there will be a guy, a man, who does try to make you the best person you can be. A guy who helps you complete and make all your dreams, goals, aspirations come true...and doesn't give up, doesn't cop out, and doesn't sit on his lazy crummy ass playing video games, and doing jack. I.E. how Landon helps Jamie complete the "To-Do List".... 1. Be @ two places @ once, 2. witness a miracle, 3. get a tattoo. etc. etc.

*sidenote* makes me wonder what the hell people's standards are when choosin their significant others. I guess there are 3 levels of the "significant other". I could be wrong, I am no expert, but this is my mind space... and so I explain: Type 1: You're a neede person, not necessarily bad, but you have a need to have someone with you always, of the opposite sex, so you have a gf/bf one after the next. Like J.Lo goin thru P.Diddy, Cris Judd, and now Ben. Maybe you don't have high expectations, standards of what you want in the other. Like you're shopping for shoes, and are only getting them because they're the new style, they're discounted.
Type 2: The type that is looking for Mr./Miss Right NOw.. who might eventually turn into Mr./Miss Right later on, but no guarantees, but you enjoy each other, and go with the flow of it. Type 3: My Type: You take a goood lookin around before you buy. Not just buying shoes cuz they're cool, they're good looking, they're cheap, they're the style. I'm looking for the shoe that lasts, molds to my feet, gives me comfort, the one worth the price i'm paying be it low or high, the pair that stands out to me because I like it, not cuz the world does. Get me?

Anyways, back to Walk To Remember... damn, lost my train of thought, basically, my point is, it was lovely to see a devoted other-half, who changed for the better, with the help of the girl.

Will continue later, Gold Globes Viewing Party @ my friend's place.. adios.

I have realized that I learn alot from reading magazines. InStyle. Time. Newsweek. People. UsWeekly. Maxim. Esquire. Glamour. Martha Stewart Living. Popular Science. Anything. Everything. So once again, I draw my next blogspot entry from ESQUIRE: Man At His Best Issue from Januanry 2003. In this issue, ESQUIRE has a special section/story: "What I've Learned," Their second annual special edition devoted to Truth, Wisdom, Loopiness, Sound Advice, Perfect Idea, and Mad Charm, taken from 11 extraordinary public figures such as Robert DeNiro, Ice Cube, Sumner Redstone, Buzz Aldrin. Below are a selection of key, important quotes that shook me. I like to be shaken. I like to be stirred. I hope all of you out there enjoy this as much as I do.

Sumner Redstone [CEO, VIACOM, 79, NYC]
Success is not built on success. It's built on failure. It's built on frustration. Sometimes it's built on catastrophe.
The only thing that counts is competence. Not race. Not gender. Competence.
I got a chance to see a preview of Star Wars. After it was over, I walked across the street to a gas station and used a pay phone to buy 25,000 shares of 20th Cenutry Fox. That's not necessarily vision. I was a movie exhibitor, and I thought I could tell when a movie was going to take off. You can't always.

Gerald Ford [Former President, 89, Calif.]
For supreme happiness, a man has to reach one of his grand goals.
I didn't organize my life or plan it. It unfolded.

Ice Cube [Rapper, actor, writer, 33, LA]
First time I laid eyes on my wife, what went thru my mind was: That could be my woman. Fox Hills Mall, LA, 1989, Aug. 5th. I was an unknown then. Am I happy I met her before I became known? Hell, yeah. I know a lot of fmaous dudes who are bachelors, and they're miserable. The parties get old. They don't know who to trust. They think they've got somebody, and after a few months the real person comes out. It's just a mess. To be with somebody who supports me 100%, is good to my kids, keeps herself up, keeps the house up-- she's the perfect mate. And she can handle things when I'm out of town, never alls apart. She's tough. All those qualities...man, I'm lucky.

Chuck Barris [Game-show host, 73, NYC]
To me, dinner with four or five or six friends is living like a bunny rabbit. I tell ya, it's the best.

Self-reflection is what occurs when I read interviews, quotes, etc. self-reflection is what keeps me real. Keeps me grounded. Keeps me intune with my surroundings. Keeps me intrigued with life, people. Keeps me being me. So I ask, are you self-reflection as much as you should????

It's been a lil while since my last entry, but no worrries. I am back.

Break has ended. School has started. Another semester is here. And soon I'll be outta here.

My last full semester. Pondering thoughts. To think how much I have grown these past 3 1/2 years is almost undescribable. indeniable. incredible. unbelievable. I know i use 1001 cliches/cheesy quotes, everyday of my life, but cliche are cliches cuz they are true. but to honestly reflect on how the past semester have gone, and to look forward to one final semester, i can remember so much, and to sum then up with cheesy descriptions is how this is going to be explained, so beware.

Dammit, I am sleepy, so the world will have to wait until tomorrow for me to describe. hahaah. but parting lyrics from one of my favorite Frou Frou songs..."It's Good To Be In Love"

I don't know where to start
Say I’m tired or throw a party
These cucumber eyes are lying the more that I smile
about it.
And all of my clothes feel like somebody's old throw aways
I don't like it.

It's good to be in love.
It really does suit you
Just like everything.
I'm happy you're in love,
'Cause every colour goes where you do.

I'm adoring you.
It's all good.
You're so beautiful.
I'm black and blue all over.
You're breaking my flow, how could you know what I'm saying
about it
When all of my clothes feel like somebody's old throw aways.
I don't like it

It's good to be in love.
It really does suit you
Just like everything.
I'm happy you're in love,
'Cause every colour goes where you do.

I feel so powerless
I've got to stop it somehow
oh come on, what can I do?

Why's it happening?
How's it happening without me?
Why's it happening?
How's it happening that he feels without me?

It's good to be in love.
It really does suit you
Just like everything.
I'm happy you're in love,
'Cause every colour goes where you do.

'Cause every colour goes where you do...

The New Year's Eve Summary... in a NutShell...
Ok... so my lil saga starts @ around 5 pm last nite when I headed out to my friend Susan's apt...
1. arrived, and helped her decide sexy top she should wear... she must have went thru 10 tops before deciding...but it was all very fun... in the end though, she decided to wear her "I'm a slave for you" blue suede top, that attracts mucho attention...and she even added a KICK to the shirt.... all in all, all of us dressed to impress, and wore ensembles that focused on our best assets.hahah. pictures to come soon.

2. Tin arrived later on, with a chilled bottle of champagne ready for us to start downing! She even bought mini-bottles of Chambord, Kettle One, Grey Goose, Midori, etc. etc. so we could spike our drinks later in the evening.

3. We blasted Susan's mp3s while we were getting ready. These weren't just any mp3s. these were her OLD ASS mp3s from the dorms from 4 years ago. She had such classics as Riverdance, Monifah- touch it, Rumpshaker, Outkast-Rosa parks, old skool Madonna songs, Billie Meyers - Kiss the Rain, and a whole lotta OLD ASS mid 90's music. Very fun.

4. We all headed out to the strip in cabs, first stop saddle ranch for a decent buffet selection. The highlight of eating was when the band came around and played requests. "Chris and Mike" played Prince's Red Corvette on the guitar and the fiddle.. while we chimmed in with our New Years Blow ... that blowy new years instrument. The running joke of the evening was giving cute guys that were around a new years blow.... not an actual "blow" but a toot on the new years instrument thing.

5. Saddle Ranch was kinda dead @ 8 so we headed up the the "east" themed party @ Miyagi's as Saddle Ranch and Miyagi's were throwing an "East meets West" party last night. @ Miyagi's we ate some "asian inspired" food, STANDING, because all the damn tables were RSVP only, for those "big celebs" that would be coming, but never did... so what the hell? Moving on, eventually a table opened up and we sat, drank, and danced to the music videos that came on. And while these music videos came on, we "tooted" on our blowers with the beats and rhythms... we were the show in the rooom we were in.hahah.. Our favorite club videos came on, Xtina's Dirrrrty, and Justin's Like I love You.. we have muchos fun... that is until the Karaoke began @ 10... there were a couple good songs, but then people started singing buzz killers like "I Left My Heart In San Francisco" and other cheesy, non-partying tunes. Oooh, and when Tin was halfway done with her Midori Sour, she decided to bust out a mni-bottle of Grey Goose and dumped it into her drink...and as she was dumping, the waitress is walking by, and sees her..and ends up scolding Tin, "Don't let me see you doing that again" hahahahah. Bad Tin..hahah. Moving on, the crowd was gettin dull..so we head back to "SaddleBags" @ 11 and decided to ring in the new year over there. Note: it was FREEEEZING on the Strip @ this time.

6. Back @ saddle ranch, Susan keeps telling us to "line up" our new years kiss. She was very eager, and @ the bar, she decided the bartender "name we do not know" would be the receiver of her new year's smooch. There was no one there worthy for me... so I bowed out of the "New Year's Kiss Agreement" that we had settled on earlier in the evening. =) We all got a couple more drinks, and when midnight was rolling around, Susan and Tin had had their fair share of drinks. They were getting close to the edge. @ midnight we champagne toasted, blew the blowy things outside on the patio...with hundreds of pedestrians walkin on the strip... lotta ghetto people screamin LEWD comments like "Where the titties!" Like..:PUH LEASE. BLEHH.

7. A lil while after midnight, Tin had to excuse herself to YACK, and then Susan ran to the restroom herself... where we found her eventually YACKIN over the toilet, feeling helpless. Her roomie decided to take her home, while the rest of us left too to catch a taxi back to susan's. In LA, you can't fit 5 in a cab, so we had to split. We left first, and with hella people catching cabs in our area, Tin, another friend named Jessica, and myself..decided we'd be "strategic" and catch a cab @ the Hyatt down the block. Needless to say, that turned out to be a BAD idea. When we got to the valet area, there was a line of people, and NO organization whatsoever. People were cutting in front of each other, grabbin taxi's from other people... it was bad. and it was COLLLLLLD outside. We had waited about 30 minutes when we get a call from Susan's roomate... apparently they were HOME already. Then we decide to ask her to come pick us up.... and we are standing out in the F****** cold as the hotel didn't let non-hotel guests into the hotel. FREEEZING.. literally FREEEZING, my nose wanted to fall off. It took Susie another 40 minutes or so to get close to where we were.. so we decided to venture out on foot to meet up with her car, which was stuck in traffic 1/4 mile away.... we walk, in the cold, freeezing our asses off, being victims of lewd comments again, and racist comments like "mushi mushi!" ...what are we japanese?!?! Assholes!! Anyways, I even met a hispanic stranger named walter, and shoook hands with him...hahahah.. movin on...we eventually met up with Susie and we B-lined to the car like a moth to a flame.

So yeah, a BAD BAD BAD start to a new year. The rest of the year better be better than last night. I hope everyone else had a good time. =)